Kendz

yup, this is my second blog for the day.. and mind you, it’s only 10:57am in the morning!!! I’m so f*cking bored. i’m in such a foul mood. my manager still hasn’t able to get his big butt here in the office. i’ve tried calling him but to my dismay, no one answers.

i’m also in a foul mood because everytime i write, i feel that my writing skills are going down the drain. i think it’s because i have been writing internal control memorandums and documentations for too long! i don’t have my literary mind with me anymore. wah!!! one of these days, i am going to sit down with my handy dictionary and read every single word on it. maybe i’ll get back my talent in creative writing instead of just report writing… (my current vocabulary consists of the words: noted, performed, risk, control, recommendation, computer, amongst others) and i can’t even think of the right idioms already!!! i’ll have to dig out my book of idioms, that is, if i can find it in the throng of accounting books that i have at home. note to myself: burn those books, sell them, give them away, whatever, just get rid of them!

still in a foul mood, i don’t want to start with my staff’s appraisal because i dont want my foul mood to show on her appraisal. i need to do something… to let out all this pent up frustations… chocolates? hmm.. i’m on a diet. walking? where? and i’m wearing my killer shoes, won’t do. singing? that’s one talent i haven’t mastered and never will i think. ah now i know! why don’t i just continue bitching here will all the things that went wrong with my day? nah… dont want to do that.

i guess i just have to get some coffee, put on my earphones (eventhough it’s banned here in the office.. well duh! whatever) and pretend that no one is here in the office with me. yah. i think that might do it… if not, i can daydream about a land far away and hope that i’ll get there soon. hehe. now, my mood is getting better already! i think i’ll start working on my CV? ngyahahaha. =D

why???? why do terrible things come up when you most definitely don’t want it to??? why do i get the feeling that somewhere out there someone really does not want me to go on a vacation? hello?! i think i earned this trip so just please LET ME BE!

here i am, getting ready for my week-long leave, finishing all the job I have to do, feeling secure that I won’t be leaving any pending work, but lo and behold, i get stumped with new problems. why??? why me??? why now???

i’m already going crazy squeezing in everything in an 8-hour span of time, what more with all these confusion, distraction and setback? HELP!!! i really really could use some help. but who will be my saving grace? who will be there to help me? apparently, NO ONE.

i guess i just have to straighten my back, bow my head, and PRAY that everything will turn out fine… because there’s nothing else I can do. GOD help me!

I’m bored… It’s 5pm and I’m already roaring to go home! =D

There are still things that I need to get done but I can’t concentrate… because I know that just around the corner is a week-long vacation trip for me!!! My family is going to Shang hai and Xiamen for some ‘temple-hopping’, it will be a great chance for me to reflect and internalize. I think I really need this trip -  a change of environment will definitely be good for me. Hopefully, the weather there is cold because I have my jacket ready, so bring it on! hehe… At least I’ll be able to get some rest and sleep in this trip. (hopefully)

It’s 5:36 pm.. just a bit more. I came in at around 9am so I still have 30 mins before I can go home. tick tock tick tock tick tock… Tomorrow is Thursday, my last day pre-vacation. =D I can’t wait… tick tock…

5:38… hmm.. I guess that’s enough. I’ve waited long enough. Time to pack up and go home. Sshhh… ;p

Wah! I’m so tired…  I never imagined that a person’s mind and body can be THIS tired. My body is about ready to give in on me and my mind feels so numb that sometimes, it hurts to even THINK! ngehehehe.

Yesterday was the chart topper of all! I went to four meetings in a span of 10 hours! It started at 8 in the morning at the office, then a 10 am meeting in Paranaque, then a 1:30 pm meeting back at the office and finally a 6:30 pm meeting! I could care less if those meetings were for small and not-so-important clients, but NO!! The first three meetings were for my 3 biggest clients. My revenue-earners. THE COMPANIES. So I had to go and sit and try to contribute as much as I can. It sucks. The fourth meeting was amongst us Seniors, sort of a surprise meeting. Nonetheless, the topic was very relevant that I had to stay and say something.

Today is a bit better though. My schedule is a bit relaxed and I don’t feel like I’m running a race. =D Still there are things that I need to do and get done by the end of the week. Argh! I’m soooo tired. I can’t imagine staying another year and going through all of these all over again. (hmm.. i think that’s the thousanth time i said that since I joined the firm! well, i’ll continue saying it as long as I am here! hehe)

Sometimes, I wonder why I have to endure all the troubles as I do, but I stop and think and then I realize one thing… THAT I ACTUALLY ENJOY THIS! The adrenaline rush, the hectic schedule, the craziness of all of these… because at the end of the day, I love knowing and feeling that I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED SOMETHING. =) Ciao.