Kendz

warning: i’m writing this blog with my eyes half-closed. so do forgive any grammatical or typographical errors that you might see.

background of the story: philip was pulled-in to our client and is now diligently helping me to finish my work for the user acceptance testing (UAT) next Tuesday.

side-note: i finished my UAT for the FI-AR SAP Module today! yey! i was so tensed and anxious that i didnt get a decent sleep last night. which might be a factor that contributed to my hearing impairment.

script:

candy: what is the name of the person i am talking to tom for PM Module?

aimee: chee kong

candy laughs

candy asks geoff: do you know chi kong kaw? it’s a foo kien term

geof scratches head as he always do

geof: no… what does it mean?

candy: it means clumsy or something like that.

here comes the weird part…. hehehe

philip: ano ibig sabihin ng cham si?

candy thinking of the right term

candy: parang for now… like for now dont do this blah blah

philip: ano nakakatawa?

candy turns to geof and ask: what’s funny in mandarin?

candy relays the word to philip: ta siaw!

philip and aimee begins laughing…

candy clueless on the joke…

then after awhile laughs heartily with the two… grabe hindi ako makahinga kakatawa!!!

you know why we’re laughing??? you don’t?

well…

synopsis:

-philip thought the name of the person aimee mentioned was cham si, instead of chee kong.

-candy thought philip was just asking for the meaning of cham si. since philip learns a lot of chinese word, candy didn’t see it as anything out of the ordinary

-when philip asked "ano yung nakakatawa" he was asking why i laughed when aimee said the name chee kong. and not the translation of the phrase!!!

-funny as it is, the punchline i think is when my manager seriously contemplated and correctly translated a phrase that apparently no one wanted to know!!! bwahahaha!

ang saya diba? we managed to complete one whole conversation without really connecting on a single thought!!!

ganun na ba ako ka ngarag sa work?? at least i got to laugh. and laugh i did. really hard.

Dear God

First of all, I would like to say I’m sorry for all the things I’ve done wrong. I know I’ve made a lot of promises to you that i did not keep. but i’ve been trying real hard to be a good Catholic. promise. sometimes, i just cant help it. that’s why im sorry… im sorry for saying bad words today. i was provoked. but that’s no excuse. i know. im sorry. i’m sorry for thinking ill thoughts of my friends. im just feeling down and irate a lot of times. that’s still no excuse. i know. im sorry. i hope that you forgive me as i know you always do. peace tayo ha.

dear Lord God, you’ve bestowed on me so much blessings! you’ve made me the strong person i am right now. you made me learn a lot of things. you’ve helped me succeed and have a great life. i am truly grateful for all the things you have blessed me with.

But Lord God, do not think me ingrate as i ask for your guidance and your blessing tonight. i am feeling defeated and down. i know and i believe that you won’t give me an ordeal that i will not be able to overcome. i know that and i am grateful for that. but Lord God, i am now starting to doubt myself, my skills, my knowledge. i am feeling weak, no longer strong and confident.

God, please guide me through this. be with me till the end. for only with you will i be able to surpass this. only with you at my side watching over me and leading me to the right path will i become a survivor. Thank you.

God, bless my family and loved ones. Keep them healthy and strong. let them feel my love for them eventhough i am miles and miles away. let them know that i miss them and there is nothing i would not do just to be with them, at this very moment.

I pray for my friend’s brother. be with him Lord. Save him. His family needs him still.

Lord God, thank you very much for everything. I will always and forever be grateful for all the things you have given me. Be with me always and bless me as you always have.

Thank you. all this i ask through Christ our Lord.

Saint John Baptist de La Salle, pray for us. Live Jesus in our hearts, forever.

Saint Jude. Hear my prayer. Help me.

Amen.

while looking for a song that i can use for our on-site AVP (wedding preps), i remembered this song and was thinking of using it.

the lyrics are perfect! well, not exactly for the wedding, but for what aimee and i have been going thru. it’s perfect because at least it gives us something to look forward to.

ayms, just enjoy the music and just think of better days ahead oki doks? isayaw na lang natin yan!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GpwCvuorVuU

High - Lighthouse Family

When youre close to tears remember
Some day itll all be over
One day were gonna get so high
And though its darker than december
Whats ahead is a different colour
One day were gonna get so high

And at
The end of the day
Well remember the days
We were close to the edge
And well wonder how we made it through
And at
The end of the day
Well remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
Well remember it was me and you

cause we are gonna be forever you and me
Youll always keep me flying high in the sky of love

Dont you think its time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day were gonna get so high
cause even the impossible is easy
When we got each other
One day were gonna get so high

And at
The end of the day
Well remember the days
We were close to the edge
And well wonder how we made it through
And at
The end of the day
Well remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
Well remember it was me and you

cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love

High, high, high, high…

i miss dancing so much… i love dancing!

not just the dance-in-a-bar dance but the hard-core, choreographed, in-front-of-hundreds-of-people kind of dance. last time i danced was in last year’s sportfest in cuneta astrodome and i miss miss miss miss doing that!

dancing was my everything in high school. you can say i danced through my high school life… i don’t know how i managed to pass my 4 years in high school but i did… i would always think that the more i did extra curricular activities, the more i was motivated to get good grades. (philosophy in the house was: low grades, no dance) hehe

there was nothing else i’d do in high school but dance. after class i’d be practicing dancing; during programs i’d be there dancing in front of the entire school population. if you would ask me one thing i’d relate my high school life to, it would be dancing. dancing gave me comfort. dancing gave me confidence. dancing was my life.

now that i’ve been feeling down, i want nothing else but to dance dance dance! i want to lose myself and just dance all day long.

maybe i’ll join the jazz class in the community center or maybe i won’t. or maybe i’ll just dance in my room?

anyway, i uploaded a new video in my friendster profile. one of my all-time favorites. favorite dance-song singer, favorite dance song, favorite dance video. so much memories tied to this one…

those were the days. how i wish i can live like that again…

we went shopping! finally after being cooped up in the client for a month, i finally got the chance to go out and enjoy the Great Singapore Sale!

i know it’s so petty but it was a big moment for cheryl and me when we bought our first lacoste shirts (got the shirt for lui), hence, the picture.

Bangkok! here we come!!!

i’ve been so busy lately that i haven’t had time to blog anymore. my current client really sucks. what makes it worse is that i was not supposed to be part of this client, i was only supposed to substitute for aimee when she took her cisa leave, but as it is, i don’t think i’ll be leaving this client soon. (kainis tlaga!!!) all of my teammates who were there to help out during aimee’s leave have already moved on to other clients. one even moved to another company, but me? i think i’m doomed.

how bad is this client, actually, maiintindihan ni ms marj, mark, alvin and koya… it’s like the first year of Amkor SOX but much much worse (trust me. much much much much worse). whenever i feel that i can see the light, that there’s hope, another storm comes in to ruin the day… so that little spark of hope just literally disappears…

i just can’t get over the fact that i should have been in another client! argh! but as they say, that’s life. im just praying to God Almighty that He continues to give me the strength and will to go on… Because I’ve been wanting to give up the past few days. I really want to just pack up and leave! >:(  (parang nasabi ko na tong line dati ah) but i know God will not put me in a situation i can’t handle, so bring it on. (ngyaks. wag naman baka mamatay na ako - i was already palpitating the other day)

on a lighter note, (just to keep my mind of that client-that-really-sucks-big-time) good thing i found something that would keep me sane! at night, however tired i am (and because of my insomia) i make it a point to watch at least one episode of "A Wonderful Life." it’s a korean series which i am really really enjoying. at least i have something to do to keep my mind off work even for an hour or two.

just got a two days sabatican from the client… senior manager asked me (on the last minute i must say) to join a "Facilitating for Deloitte" seminar. I was really pissed because there were precourse work and the other members were notified a couple of weeks ago. so on the last minute, i have to prepare two faciliation sessions for the class.

here’s what happened:

first day: we were supposed to discuss technical skills. everybody in the group have IT background except for moi. so i decided to do something different, i decided to relate to them the importance of ITGC, oh excuse me, GCC to the financial audit. i only had at most 15 minutes to prepare the slides since i wasnt able to do it the night before… so after lunch, just as i finished my powerpoint presentation, the facilitator picked a name from the box. lo and behold… i was the first to go. talk about ironic!!! the last participant is the first to present. argh! so i did what i can. i could feel that i was making no sense at all! i didnt even use some of the slides! wah! feedbacks/general comments: i knew my topic very well. my slide was not structured. i have soft voice. i spoke very fast ( whick is the tendency when i get really really nervous)

so… second day: i was determined to make this faciliation session better than my first one. i wanted to revive myself!!! this time, we were supposed to talk about soft skills. at first i didnt know what to present… i was really having a hard time deciding. but then i remembered this phone etiquette thing that OCS taught us. and i decided to go for that! so the night before, i already had my slides ready and rehearsed.  i was feeling quite happy with myself. (haha yabang). on the day itself, the facilitator decided to take another approach in determining the sequence of the presenters… guess guess??? pangilan ako???

………………………….. syempre im still the first one to present! wah!!! ang malas ko talaga!!!! how did i become the first? they wanted it youngest to oldest. no!!! i knew i was going to be the first to present until the facilitator said based on birthdate… yes!! but then, youngest birth month will be december right?  wah.. wah… wah… wala tlagang kawala!

anyway, i did way way better than the day before. general comments: structured presentation, good voice, very good facilitation session!, good vocal.

o diba? ;p much much better. there. pwede na ako tumahimik. haha

ang haba na ng blog na to. i think puputulin ko na.

(oh ang period pala sa singaporeans ay "full stop")

so full stop

i never liked surprises (maybe because mababa EQ ko)

but once in a while, it’s nice to experience being given a wonderful wonderful surprise!

i’ll let the video speak for itself. thank you ian for the early wedding gift (tagal pa ng wedding ko!) i really really appreciate and loved the video. naka "you tube" pa yan ha!! hope that even if you become a big time auditor in Toronto, you  won’t forget your little friend in Singapore (or wherever faith will take me). Thank you so much for this wonderful gift… miss you so much!!!

watch the video here >>> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1yIgMCH0MQM

how can the number of views of my friendster account jump from 60 views to 126 views in just one day???

weird…

dont mind me. im a bit stressed now. between this SAP implementation thingy and the wedding preps, im kinda really stretched right now…

sarap nang sakalin ang manager namin. (ssshhh.. i didn’t say that. in fairness to him, cya din naman harassed so siguro iniisip din nya gusto nya ko sakalin ngayon. hehehe… tagalog tayo para hindi nya maintindihan. bwahahaha)

side step: see my cute pic? hehe that was during our Impact Day. what’s that? well it’s like the CSR of PwC, social responsibility. We went to this very very far place here in Singapore to clean up. hehe funny thing was, for Philippine standards, I still think that "swamp" was not really in deep sh*t. i actually think that it’s still tolerable, they should see the ilog pasig in Manila! hahaha. I had fun that day. It’s the first time i really socialized with the rest of the group. Aimee and Roland did not join, I dont think there were any of the x-pwc who joined. But i still managed to have fun and get to know the other IT people better. yey!

yun lang. back to work… still 100+ risks to think of. (literally 100+risks of why this tcode and this tcode cannot be granted to this user. argh!!!)

what does a kid do when she gets lost in the park?  - cry.

what does a kid do when she gets left behind with an unwanted yaya? - cry.

what does a kid do when her mom doesn’t take her to go someplace she really loves to go to? - cry.

what does a kid do when her playmate goes away? - cry.

what does a kid do when the most fun she had for a long time has been cut short? - cry.

so… what did the "kid" do when her mom and sis went back to the philippines?

go figure.

d last Friday, while working, i received the text i was waiting for a long time. it was lui…. he was here in Singapore!

he was going to be here from Friday night to Monday morning. so basically, just two days. i wish he could have stayed longer but as they say"beggars can’t be choosers"

we started off the unofficial Singapore tour last Saturday with a visit to the Singapore Zoo. since both of us love animals and nature, i thought this was the best place to bring Lui. and i was right. we had a grand time. albeit, my legs were killing me at the end of the day, we still enjoyed the trip a lot! Singapore zoo is the best! definitely a must see in Singapore. i have yet to try the night safari… maybe next time.

Sunday… we started the day off early. we first visited Suntec City for Lui’s "toys" and then headed off to Esplanade for some picture taking, then to the merlion, for some more picture taking and then went to Funan IT mall to look for my hard disk (yey! bought one already). the final stop was in orchard for some pasalubong-buying. take note. we only rode two buses. one going to to Suntec and the other one going to Orchard. if you know how far these places are from one another, you’ll probably have an idea how my legs were aching by the time we went home.

anyway, we capped off the day with a sumptuous meal in Jumbo East Coast, where we met up with Philip, Aimee, Pelo and Glenda. We had a grand time laughing and telling jokes and enjoying the crabs. yum!

then… it was time to go home. i was really getting sad because i know this was Lui’s last night in Singapore. i really wanted to stretch time and make his stay last. but i can’t

anyway, i thought the day’s adventures will end there… but no. we had some picture taking by photographer Philip Reyes and stylist Aimee Paguia by the pool side! hahaha it was so funny! so that’s what it feels like… i guess we need some practice posing and smiling in front of the camera… im pretty sure there will be lots of that in our wedding day.

wedding day? oh! did i mention i got engaged last night? ;p